Ok, today is the day I get back on the dietary straight and narrow. For real this time--I mean it! I've been eating everything that isn't nailed down pretty much for the last month. It makes me really mad at myself, and then I eat more junk. What is wrong with me?? I'm up 7lbs as of this morning. (Although I weighed myself about an hour ago, and am down a pound from this morning--so some of it must be water!)
I had donuts every day this week except today. Two of them yesterday, in fact! I am completely out of control. I'm trying to regain control. Today a girl at work baked apple pies and brought them in, and I didn't have any. It's not that hard to resist apple pie, it's donuts, chocolate cake, candy, etc. that are hard to leave alone! So 3 weeks from tomorrow is my 36th birthday. I need to be 7lbs lighter by then, which should be pretty doable. Then I can have cake and a good birthday dinner. The following week I go to Chicago to visit my friend Clayton. So I want to be thin for my trip. Clayton hasn't seen me since I lost weight, so I want to be at my thinnest and most fabulous! :)
Today I behaved myself. No junk at all. I even snacked on baby cucumbers. Slightly less satisfying than candy, but it makes me hate myself a lot less. I also ran on the treadmill for 1/2 hour. I much prefer walking outside, but it gets dark so early now and Nick doesn't like to go with me. I live in a safe neighborhood, but I don't like walking alone in the dark. (partly because I'm night blind, partly because I'm a little girl and don't like being raped and murdered!)
I realize this is a big rambling pile of crap, but oh well. It's my pile of crap, so suck it! :) I'll keep you posted on the weight loss.