Today drained my will to live...

I was in my 4th car accident since July 2006 today. It was totally my fault. I didn't see her and changed lanes into her car. I suck. I was afraid the insurance agency was going to cancel me, but spoke to the owner of my branch, and she told me I have an excellent driving record except the last 1 1/2 years, and not to worry about it. Also that several of the accidents weren't my fault. She told me to worry about my car getting fixed, and it was just an accident. No big deal. I wonder how much they are going to rape me on the premiums I pay next year. I bet a lot.

On other fronts, I hate everything in my life. I don't even have the energy to write about it. I just want to lay in bed and cry, but I can't because my relatives are coming over this weekend for Christmas...the holiday that won't end. I still need to buy something for my mother. What do you get the paranoid schizophrenic who has everything? Oh well, by Sunday it will all be over, finally.

If someone wouldn't mind terribly, just shoot me and put me out of my misery. Ok? Thanks.